Friday, February 26, 2010

We've had lots of snow, sleet and rain this week. Lots of no school. Which means I can't go to work. During the week I do the office work/billing for our restaurant. It's great that it's so flexible but in times like this it can get me in trouble. No school and daycare means I can't go to work. Which, I know some people don't have that option. However, there's something about being able to make your own schedule, you can easily get behind. So, since we're moving Monday I gave in this week. I did the payroll, which was the necessity and not much else. I will just have to work extra hard next week.

I have my little one napping on the bed next to me while I type. This kid never naps for more than 30 min and she has been napping for a hour. Usually I put her in the crib, maybe I should have been doing this the whole time. I'll have to try it more often.

The weekend is here. For me, the weekend brings lots of anxiety. My parents are around, which always brings me anxiety. Tim works from 9 AM to midnight on the weekends. I deal with the kids all day, go to work at 5 PM, home around midnight and wake up early to deal with them (7ish if i'm lucky). I'm moving Monday and it's snowing. Snow in the restaurant business is not a good thing, especially when it's on the weekend. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything goes smoothly. That people still come in to eat this weekend, that moving is as seamless as can be and that I stay calm this weekend.

I'm mostly packed. It's all the little things that get to me. So many little things that you don't think are too bad, and then when you're moving you have so much crap piled up in your car last minute.

Hope any readers have a good weekend too.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

This weekend I'm working, of course. I'm getting organized for our move in 1 week. And there's a lot to organize. Tomorrow I want to go to Target. I want to get new kids dishes, a hamper, toaster and I'm not sure what else. I'm usually not into chain stores, restaurants etc. But I love Target. There's something about walking around 1 store and being able to get almost anything you could need that is nice. When you have 2 kids in tow you just need a store where you can stick your kids in a shopping cart and go. I think that's why I'm not so into shopping malls anymore. It's pointless. You have to bring the stroller and with 2 kids in a double stroller there's no room for packages, or you have room for packages and a older kid whining at some point. I know people have been doing this for years and years but somehow right now everything just seems so difficult. okay, enough with the poor me rant. We took some pics of the restaurant last night for our new website. We took about 10 of me and Tim, I think this was the best one.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Well I recently got back into the blog world. I got rid of my old blog and started this new one, focused more on myself and not just my children. I'm hoping it will be therapeutic to me. I feel like I need something. I have so much going on in my life and I just feel off. Then I came across the blog, DesignHERmomma and she wrote a post (I will link to it later) that just seemed similar to how I feel. I feel like my life is so completely crazy right now. Tim works all the time. And as business owners, I have the crazy life of balancing work and the kids. Tim seems to think I have it easier. But I find this life of trying to do paperwork with the kids around, shuffling them all over the place and going to work at times too just leaves me feeling completely chaotic. I have anxiety about a lot of things and I find myself getting frustrated at times with the kids and life in general. I feel really guilty that all this stuff is getting me down. Sometimes I look at my girls and think how lucky I am, how wonderful they are and how can I be so unhappy at times over miniscule things? Why do I let the little things get me down? But then other times Samantha does not stop talking. She talks not stop and then the whining on top of it. It drives me crazy. I can't believe I am even writing that, I feel guilty just typing it. I'm tired of yelling and feeling crazy. I just need to find some peace. I'm just not sure where to start right now.

Monday, February 15, 2010


Wow, what a whirlwind of a weekend. We were really busy at the restaurant. It got a little crazy and chaotic at some points. Everything was fine, customers were happy, but I think we need a little work in some spots so that things can run a little smoother. I do not like being stressed at work. So we need to adjust a few things. A customers chair broke on Sat night! So that was just about my worse moment so far at the restaurant. They were fine, didn't fall all the way, and stayed and had dinner and drinks so I'm thinking it's fine. Still, obviously stressful.

I think we need some work on organization there. There are so many things in the restaurant business that you can't control. I just think the things that you can control you have to be really on top of, so it makes it easier to deal with the other things.

My family was all visiting during this crazy work time. It made it easier to deal with the kids, because they were occupied the whole time. But it was harder b/c we had to be social and on when I wasn't at work, which made it difficult. Also, Ella slept terribly. She got up early and was up at night when I was coming home both nights. She was sleeping in a pack n play in our room, which is never great for her. Ella is a very light sleeper.

And in the middle of all this was the infamous V Day. Basically a disaster. Tim and I never really make a big deal of any holidays. We've been married for almost 7 years now and dating for 12. The times we've actually surprised each other have been few and far between. I'm starting to need a little romance. We said we don't have a lot of money. However, I still got candy and a card for Tim. And I had the kids make Valentines for him. Last night when I finally got mad and said something to him at 10:30 PM he said I did get you a card. But he forgot to give it to me and it was at work. Really? Should this count? I don't think so. I don't need much but a little tiny something shouldn't be too much to ask. And forgetting it at work is not okay. Make me a damn card then. I don't care. Just don't make it seem like you just forgot.

I hate fighting on V Day. It's a stupid Hallmark holiday and I don't like getting into the whole thing. We didn't go out to eat b/c we had to work. So I just wanted some sort of gesture. Ughh... why does Valentines Day after to be such a letdown?

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Thank the Lord!

The restaurant is busy this weekend! I'm so glad. A lot of the restaurants around here have been dead lately. We've been going strong, but last weekend wasn't great. And this week due to the snow we had 2 days where only 4 people came in total. I was getting worried. We're moving next month and I was starting to panic. What if nobody comes anymore? We've had such great press. People rave about Tim's food. So I just need to focus on that. We have a goal, and we will just make that happen. We stay very involved in local happenings, I'm on the board of so many things, we're always talking to people, this is just what we need to do to keep people coming in. We have a lot of exciting things coming up, this weekend Valentines Day, a beer tasting menu, Girls Night Out which i am planning, a live band playing in the end of February, a DJ in the beginning of March and Hudson Valley restaurant week. Wow! That sounds like a lot listed one after the other. So I'm sure we will make it through this month successfully.

And I'm so excited to move and to have my first holiday at my house. Easter! What should I cook? Will the house be ready? It's so exciting I can barely contain myself.

On another note, I gave myself the day off from working out. I've been sore, I've been working pretty hard. 4 days a week seems sufficient for now. I think once we move I'll be able to do a little more. And I very loosely counted my ww points today. Uh oh, better be extra good tomorrow!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Feeling much better about myself. I cleaned the bedrooms today and finally matched the socks that have been sitting in the laundry basket for about 6 months. Literally... I wish I was exaggerating (and so does my husband). Sadly, that seems like a enormous accomplishment for me today. I worked out tonight, did the 30 Day Shred. Made me feel so much better since I ate tons of chocolate today. And I finished half of the payroll. I will finish the rest in the morning because i left part of it at work. Hopefully I will make it down the driveway successfully tomorrow. Tim had to walk up our half mile long driveway tonight. Tons of fun. We have snow drifts that are a foot high, but only about 6-8 inches of snow, I think. It's still coming though. The kids can finally go out and play tomorrow! I have to go in to work for a 9 Am meeting. and Samantha and I have to write out her valentines tomorrow. Way to wait until the last minute. Well I'm off to read my book.


Well it is finally really snowing here. They cancelled school here even though the snow didn't start until noon. We've been doing nothing today. I'm trying to get organized. Yesterday was my weigh in day on WW and by some miracle I lost 5 pounds! I was so excited. That was exactly the motivation I need to keep on going. This means I'm below my pre pregnancy weight with Ella and 4 pounds from my pre pregnancy weight with Samantha. Yipee!

And here is a picture of my adorable little one playing the harmonica. She's pretty good at it too.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Well I had a rough weekend. Work was not quite busy enough on Friday. I paid some bills late and it affected my credit score. And I have no real reason why I paid it late. It was just stupidity on my part. And I hate that. I hate when I mess up. Doesn't everyone? I was sort of feeling like nothing was going my way. We had a lot of big bills lately and the bank account is looking as fluffy as it once was. I got into a argument with my parents. The house is a mess. I'm just feeling like I can't get ahead of things. But I'm looking forward. I'm going to make this a good, productive week. I can't change the past but I can change the future.
I have a good plan to accomplish a lot at work this week, get organized at home, pack things up and try not to argue with my parents.

We are moving in 3 weeks! I'm going to focus on that and do what I need to do to get through the next 3 weeks in a good, organized way. And next weekend is Valentines Day! Hopefully it will be busy at work and everyone will be full of Valentines love! Next weekend is also a big family weekend. Lots of people are visiting and that is always hard for me especially when I am working the whole time. One day at a time...

Thursday, February 4, 2010

There are not many cuter things in the world than this:
Ella, go give Samantha a kiss.

And Ella runs over, the whole time making a kissing face and runs to her sister, kisses her and then laughs out loud. I need to get a picture of it.

These days the two of them are playing so nicely. There are moments when I think it's possible that I could do this again. And then there's the 95% of the time when I think there's no way I would possibly have another child. But then there are the moments, like the one we just had, siblings being so loving to each other, that makes it all worth it right?

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

So I gave into the annoying celebrity facebook thing. I've never been told I look like anyone, that I remember. So I went to and uploaded a picture to see what celebrity I look like. You won't believe what it said...

wait for it...


apparently I don't resemble anyone famous at all. I was just trying to have a little harmless fun, ego boost while giving my kids a bath and nothing.

So then I uploaded their pictures and it will tell you which parent the kids look more like. And both kids got 50/50. Seriously? The internet isn't giving me anything tonight...

Tuesday, February 2, 2010


So, today I joined Weight Watchers Online and walked very quickly in the freezing cold for 40 minutes. It isn't perfect but it's a start. I really wanted to also do a video today but that just didn't happen. Tomorrow is busy. work in the morning, then I'm planning to exercise at 12:30 when I pick Ella up from school.

And I'm trying to read more. I'm keeping a list for what I read in 2010. I'm just curious how much I read. I'm on book 3 right now.

Now I'm enjoying a glass of wine and am still within my 22 points value for the day. Go me!

Monday, February 1, 2010


We are moving in 1 month. I am so excited I can barely take it. I am diving into all things house related. Organization, home furnishings etc. I'm taking out all the shelter magazines that have been boarded up for years. I'm excited to make this house a home! It's been so long since we've had that. Our family has been living in my parents basement for 2 years now and I can't wait to have space and closets and pretty things to look at other than just the necessitites. Of course, we'll be on a tight budget so there's not too much I can get. But I'm sure I can come up with some creative ways to make the house beautiful.

In other news, I gave away 8 bags of clothing to good will today! I am decluttering like I mad person.

With V day coming up I'd like to get Tim a present. We're not big on presents. So i wanted to surprise him and get him something great.

I am also doing the 30 Day Shred/P 90 X / trying to get in shape. Tomorrow is Day One.