Monday, May 31, 2010

My Children Are Crazy... Among Other Things

Most of the time, my children only want me. Not only do they want me, they both want to be on top of me. They must be touching me all the time. And of course, them both touching me is not acceptable. They fight with eachother over who is getting the better spot on me. All the while I'm trying to sleep, or clean, or cook. It is exhausting. I'm trying to see the beauty in this and be grateful for this. But on Monday morning, after I've worked Th, Fri, Sat and Sun nights from 6 to 12 it's hard to think of it that way.

They do want their dad basically when they can't have him, when we visit him at work, and he's busy, they want him then. This morning at 6 AM when he tried to hold one of them, they wanted nothing of it.

We finally went downstairs and I got them fruit and made breakfast. The fruit was thrown on the floor, screaming started and I prayed that the coffee would be made more quickly.

What do you do to get through these moments? I love my kids, of course we all my heart. There are many times that they are great, we have a wonderful time and all is right with the world. And then there are the other moments. I'm thinking we all must know about these. The screaming, the lack of sleep, when they want only what we are not able to give, the tantrums in stores.

We are having a lot of the tough moments right now. Ella is almost 2 and in the throes of not being happy with most things. Anything can set her off. She's also starting to talk, and those times when she says something that is not making sense (to me) over and over again it is very tough for her to deal with it.

Oh, and I was just told that I "shouldn't be mad if she pees in her pants because poopy is much yuckier than pee. And at least she doesn't do that." Well, if that doesn't teach me how to be grateful, I don't know what does.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Things I am grateful for:
My daughters wanting me up to enjoy the sunrise with them

The moments when they are not arguing with eachother

Peaceful silences

Double non fat Lattes

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Lessons of UTI's

My daughter has a UTI and it is awful awful awful. She complains about peeing, won't go because it hurts her and then has tiny little accidents ALL DAY LONG. She has been on the antibiotics for 2 full days now, she has been drinking loads of cranberry juice, taken her vitamins with extra vitamin c and it is not clearing up yet. I am not happy. Should I call the doctor? Is she one the wrong medication? She is only 4. Part of me is really fearing that because she is having accidents now and it is sort of okay because "she can't really help it" that we are going to majorly regress with potty training. I fear I am doomed to be cleaning up pee for the rest of my days.

In other news, she also is going to sleep at 10:30 at night! I think she is uncomfortable because she always feels like she has to pee but yet she is holding it in because she is afraid to pee. So she's having trouble relaxing and going to sleep. Please someone help me out here. Also, she's been home so I've had no time for office work this week yet, the house is a disaster. Also, Ella is cutting a tooth and she has been clinging to me saying "mommy, mommy" whenever I'm not holding her for the last 48 hours.

Please tell me there is light at the end of this tunnel.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

I am watching the season finale of Greys Anatomy. Why would the season need to end like this? Does every TV show have to be more dramatic than the next? Can't it just be a good ending? Lovers getting together, good things happenning. Why does every show have to have people dying, crazy things going on? It makes me want to stop watching these shows altogether.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Crazy days

Today was a bit nutty.
I dropped off Ella at daycare and went to pilates. Then I went off to work, where I got overwhelmed and had too much to do. I got some things done. We have been working on a permit for a deck we are building for weeks now, hopefully I have everything in for that. There always seems to be something else that they need. I picked up Ella, went home to get some stuff done while she napped and then it was time to pick Samantha up. That's when things got crazy. I then had errands to do, had to get to the town hall at 5 pm to drop off paperwork, t ball at 5:30. Sometimes my days seems so overscheduled and feel like I accomplish nothing. It was pouring during t ball, which always makes things more fun, especially when you have a one year old who wants to be out on the field too. Even though I try not to get mad, during t ball it is hard for me to not wish Tim could be doing it. Or the families who come and the wives wrangle the younger siblings while the dads coach their kids along.
Tim is a chef and has to work at night. I was also really hoping that he would be practicing with her during the week. But that hasn't really seemed to happen yet. It's been 4 weeks so far. There are only 3 girls on the team and I'm worried if she doesn't practice she'll lose interest. The boys are noticeably better at this already, they must have been playing since age 2 or something.

My night got crazy when Samantha went #2 in her pants. This doesn't happen often but when she's really having fun it has happenned once or twice. So I decided that she should go right to bed. Is this harsh? I don't think so. She's 4. She shouldn't be doing that. I don't care of she doesn't make it to the bathroom as long as she tries. This time she didn't even attempt it. It wasn't that early anyway. It was 8 pm. So I made her go to bed. Much crying and screaming went on. She said, you can't do this. You have to give me more chances. Trust me, I wanted to give in. I was scared she would wake up Ella and then it would all be over. But I had to stick to the plan. I couldn't deviate after all this time. So she went to bed. It is now 8:40 and my house is extremely quiet and has been since 8:15 (knock on wood).
With that being said, I'm going to go enjoy my glass of wine and Modern Family.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Well I haven't posted in awhile. Life has been crazy. It's just life, I guess. I have been feeling a little too stressed to sit down and think of posts. But maybe that's exactly when I should post? Our restaurant has been stressful and ever consuming. I have not been doing a great job of handling the restaurant bookeeping. I have to get a bit more structured than I have been at it. There is so much to do that it's a bit overwhelming and I'm not sure how to handle it. Days go by and I get 3 or 4 things done when I wish I was getting a full 8 hours in. I think that's what I need to really accomplish anything. I don't know how that's possible. I only have half day child care and I have to answer emails, exercise, there's just so much to get done.

And then the kids have been swimming and dancing a t balling and oh, my it's neverending.

How do you deal with life when things are feeling out of control?

Instead of buckling down and doing a few hours of work now I think I'll just go watch Lost. I need a little bit of time to myself, right?

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

I'm sitting here enjoying hearing my daughters words. This morning she said, mama up. When she wanted me to get up. We went to the bathroom and she said, "teeth brush". So we brushed her teeth and when I handed her the toothbrush she said "tank you". That was the first time she said thank you unprompted.

For awhile when I give her something I say "Ella, can you sat thank you? Even though I knew she couldn't. And finally she did! It is so nice to enjoy your little ones first words. Ella is talking a lot later than Samantha did. So having to wait for it and wonder when it will come has made it that much more exciting. She's finally moved on from having a handful of words to actually talking.

In other big news we are now watching Sesame Street. She has no interest in TV whatsoever. This morning I decided to try giving Sesame Street a try. Who can resist Elmo?

Today is a daycare day, I usually try to drop her off as close to 7:30 as possible. But I was going to go for a walk/jog. There's a track right next to daycare. It's pouring out, so we're taking our time a little more than normal. It's nice to sit here with Ella while the rest of the house is still sleeping.